ecstacy and in-laws

so I had to lock this for a while in fear of my in-laws having access to the dark secrets of my family.

And it feels strange to say in-laws, but what's strager is that they already feel like family, I already love them unconditionally, I already dodge their calls.

A conversation with my roomates reminded me of something that the ring on my finger might have caused me to forget: the relationship we have isn't building up to our wedding day (that implies some sort of dropping off point or plateau that can't be topped afterward) but rather, we've been working all along towards the kind of relationship typically associated with marriage (loving, open, trusting). Our wedding day will just be a celebration of something we've had for quite a while and something we will always continue to work on. It will signify the start of a new stage (one in which we live together and have sex) but having children and experiencing loss together and getting new jobs (and my doctorate) will all bring us to new stages. Everyone keeps talking about how my wedding day will be the happiest day of my life, and while I'm sure I'll be estatc, I hope I have happier days, I hope that one day isn't the climax of my life...How sad and dissapointing to experience it so young...

- on 2003-11-22 at 2:32 p.m.

wilted - blooming