good morning, doll

Reminder to self: do not call mom with good news.

granted, I haven't called her much since she thoroughly offended me with her Easter visit. granted, I called to mainly talk about my good news.

but then again, I have this internal voice that says 'she's your mom, she'll be happy to talk about you and the plans for you life and what's going on. Damn that internal voice. It knows nothing.

I never stop hoping that my mom will accept my choices with joy, instead of sad resignation. That she'd be consistant with her desires, a bit less bipolar with every comment. She likes Jay, she just doesn't want to see me 'settle' not sure if she means settle for less than i deserve or settle down, either way, I'm offended.
She's proud of my good grades, but wishes I wasn't so busy with school. what do you mean you don't have time to come (7 hours) to see me?
She wants me to support myself (well, she forces me to support myself) but criticizes job why can't you get a nice office job with regular hours?
Wants God's will for my life, but is unwilling to accept any of the options France? I hear they're rude in France!!

Does anyone ever escape the desire for their mother's acceptance?

- on 2003-05-01 at 10:25 a.m.

wilted - blooming