me 101....

1. I was born in an Air Force Base (Wright-Patt, to be exact)

2. My parents were Marines/drug addicts

3. They will both tell you the marriage didn't last because of my mom's abuse of all things

4. Mental illness runs in my family

5. My dad's entire family are alcoholics.

6. As are my mom's (although many of them have 'recovered')

7. Thus, I don't touch the stuff

8. Well, not entirely true, I do touch it, but only when sipping someone's frou-frou drink, and only when it's the 4 of us.

9. I don't even sip someone's drink in public

10. At 3, I got my first brother (courtesy of dad and step-mom)

11. They married 2 years later

12. At 6 1/2, I got my second little brother (courtesy of mom and abusive boyfriend)

13. On my mom's 26th birthday (while she was pregnant with bro #2) she was sent to hospital after he tried to drown her in toilet

14. I lived with my Grams for almost a year

15. I thought my mom was on vacation in Hawai'i, without me.

16. I was sure she was never coming back

17. She came back, we got a little house, without men, and started going to church

18. She got saved when I was seven

19. I was raised very strictly pentacostal

20. The only movies I watched until Junior High were the Hug-A-Bunch movie and Adventures in Babysitting

21. After praying about it, my mom threw out Adventures of Babysitting, because of the language

22. Thus, I have never seen any Karate Kid or Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, or any of those other 'violent' movies that defined my generation

23. Elisha was my best friend since age 8

24. Except she thought she was better than me (bloody still-married parents)

25. I prayed and prayed to be filled with the Holy Ghost, It was almost all my diaries consisted of

26. I won a Bible at 9 for memorizing all the books of the Bible

27. I couldn't wait to learn to read

28. Once I did, I never stopped

29. I never got grounded from playing or TV, no sir, my punishment: no books for a week

30. My mom was monumentally strict, unyielding, and unprepared to be an adult

31. My mom is amazing, kind, and nurturing.

32. I've visited my father in California every summer by myself since I was 6.

33. I love the Pacific Ocean

34. My first church broke up because of a gay boy, the same boy that made out with all the girls in the youth group

35. Thank God I was too young for him

36. Mom and Scott met at new church in Aug.

37. Mom and Scott got married in December.

38. With Scott came bro #3, the step-brother, same age as #2

39. When we went on a family vacation, my best friend, Jamie came

40. She was my friend even after hearing the terrifying arguments

41. She didn't laugh when brothers #2and #3 were caught masturbating in back of van

42. Jamie is great, wonderful, shockingly insightful

43. This 3rd (and so far, final) marriage created the two most beautiful things in my life, Troy and Dylan.

44. Actually, my life has 3 beautiful things and since all of them are boys, i often say that I looove boys, all the while believing they are stupid and fickle.

45. I've had a total of 3 boyfriends

46. I only cared about boys when I needed to escape the domestic disturbances of my home life

47. I worked at McDonald's for 2 years

48. I kissed in the walk-in freezer

49. Mr. Freezer told customers we were getting married 'next week'.

50. I went to his hotel room.

51. It's the most rebellious thing I've ever done

52. McDonald boy #2 taught me to expect a lot from the men in my life

53. He taught me about honesty

54. He's married now, with children

55. I was almost expelled from school for sleeping in the boys room during an Orchestra trip

56. I was in bed (sleeping) with my friend Tim

57. Turns out, he's gay

58. He only figured this out after dating my best friend, telling me he had loved me, and still managing to never be kissed

59. Until Dave came along, Dave, the youth pastor

60. I've noticed how homosexually seems to be an underlying theme in churches

61. Remember the gay boy from my first church? He ended up at my second one, and ran off with the piano player...

62. Starting the Jan. after my mom's wedding I started a countdown

63. I could not wait to move away or just out, or just someplace quiet

64. Tennesse met all of the above

65. I still live with the girls from my first dorm

66. For once, I wasn't making friends or being social to stay away from home.

67. I fell in love for the first time at 19.

68. I'm still in love.

69. This (2 years) is my longest, and only serious relationship

70. My mom loves him

71. My best friend loves him

72. My roomates compare their boyfriends to him (don't deny it)

73. I want to never quit school

74. I would like to leave Tennessee

75. I want to get my doctorate, preferrably before I get my family

76. I want to translate for a missionary

77. Or a diplomat in the UN

78. I want to teach (at Lee, or not)

79. One day, I will speak 4 languages

80. And translate French poetry (Prévert, i hope)

81. Jamie and I want to own an art gallery (for her works), a bookstore, and a coffeeshop (for my addiction)

82. Speaking of addictions, I never have smoked anything other than one clove (shared with Jay) and one Swisher Sweet (shared with girls, probably got two puffs)

83. I have an ongoing list of books to read

84. I read all of the Anne of Green Gables books in 5th grade

85. I always ask for books for Christmas, nothing else (well, and money)

86. I currently owe my bank more than $50, my credit card company, and, of course, my car loan

87. God has always provided

88. I came to college on a scholarship,

89. I've stayed only because of the scholarhip

90. I'm a waitress, no, server

91. My spiritual gifts? hospitality, prayer and counsel

92. I love people more than I can say, I love everything about their personalities, their minds and their idiosyncrancies

93. I hate (with a passion) customers and hungry people

94. I love to drive,

95. Preferrably a Bug or a Mini

96. I've never been the cute one

97. but usually the smart one

98. I love to cook

99. I taught myself to knit

100. my entire life, philosophy, direction is based on what I believe to be God's will for my life

101. I just wish He would be a little more clear soemtimes

- on 2003-04-04 at 1:57 p.m.

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