sunny days, chasing the....

I end up here, more often than not, because i'm waiting. Waiting to meet my tutee usually. and, as usual. I don't think he's showing up today. which is annoying. because here i am. hitori de. (japanese, not french.)

speaking of french, i have a take home essay due for french lit in about 5 hours and i definately should be doing that.

or not.

something about today is hopeful.
could just be the last day before spring break, but i think it's more.
the sun finally decided to shine after 3 days of eery non-rain.
and i'm not just talking about weather. everything is different. i'm on the cusp of something and i dont know what. i should be deciding about this summer. but i can't. do i give up hope of france? do i tour the south for some english credits? do i take that western bound road trip? do i take the cushy on-campus job? is it possible to do all of the above without knowing what i should be doing?

and its draining. the deciding, the listening (a newly broken-up friend who i am literally carrying a burden for), the balancing, the being broke.

- on 2003-03-07 at 11:24 a.m.

wilted - blooming